Ok first if you believe that we are all sinners and not perfect then continue reading cause i dont want to be jugded by false christians. I try to follow God too....so i need Godly advise please. I havent masturbated in a whole month cause i finally came to my senses that it was sin and wrong. Fustration and lust was building up within me but i fought it. Every night i tossed and turned for an hour cause i was in the mood. However today i watching vids on youtube. One thing led to another....i was now watching my guilty pleasure foot fetish vids. I didnt masturbate, but my groin and waist kept twitching and cringing up and down while i layed on my bed like i was humping air. I really wanted to masturbate but refused. A feeling of pleasure from my groin kept cringing as lustful thoughts stirred in my head while watching the video. But then i ignored the video and lusted over the pleasure i was feeling. 10 minutes later without even masturbating....a whole month of build up and fustration "withdrew" from me. My shorts were ruined. I finally felt relaxed after a whole month.What justed happened? I know its wrong but...ill be lying to you if I didnt say I was relieved that I finally gotten a release that didnt involve masturbation.
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