The thing is, he's everything I want in a man. Everything I fantasize about, he does; and with an irresistable confidence. To clarify, he is one of the most attractive guys I have ever met. I have a foot fetish, and he will toss his sock in someone's face, order them around, and rest his feet in their lap. He does it all in a discreet joking way, and would never hurt anyone. He has a good heart and loves helping people. He is the epitome of what I want in a guy, and I had strong feelings for him, but he's told me he just wants to be friends. Whenever I masterbate he always comes into my mind, because he is the type of guy I always wanted-- litterally come to life. As a result I have stopped masterbating all together because if I want to be friends with him, I cant think about him sexually. I don't like to want what I can't have, and I dont want to wait for him to put his feet on me or boss me around everytime I'm with him. What do I do about all of this? How do i recover?
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